[Going into every detail, the joy of finally having the answer, the joking around with Rebecca and Lucy and Desmond, the feeling of being so close and aren't you so glad it's all over, the feeling that once, just once everything was okay and things would turn out fine.

... And then in one moment everything being ruined, the panic, the yelling, the desperation and trying to get everyone to safety and oh god, oh god, what on earth happened. And then, eventually and after what seemed like forever, being rescued.

Then it's all the rationalizations, the "calm down Shaun"'s, the infuriatingly logical explanations about how and why and "necessary sacrifices". and then he goes quiet.]